AMBER Heard said she was “heartbroken” she loved “nuts” Johnny Depp in a string of poignant texts, a court heard.
The actress described feeling like she was “on a fast train that’s about to explode” in the exchange with mum Paige Parsons.
The High Court heard how the star had been messaging Paige, who sadly died in May this year, about “Johnny’s spiral” as she branded him a “Jekyll and Hyde” character.
One read: “It’s terrible, mum. I don’t know what to do.”
Another said: “He’s nuts, mum. Violent and crazy. I’m heartbroken that this is who I love.”
The High Court heard today:
Heard also said she lied to her mum about Depp allegedly attacking her so her dad wouldn’t find out and potentially “act violently” towards the actor.
The actress then got emotional in the witness box as a text was read out that said: “I felt really lost and lonely.
“I feel like I’m on a very fastening train that’s about to explode, but I don’t want to jump off and leave my love behind.
“So I stay on the train, even though I know it’s about to explode.”
Explaining what it meant, Heard said there are two parts to Depp’s personality – the “generous, loving, remarkable man” when he was sober and the “monster” when he was on drugs and booze.
She also said he made her “addict” dad David “look like a saint when he falls off the wagon”.
In one text, Heard said: “My heart is broken. I’m OK physically. JD didn’t hit me or anything last night.
“I told him that would be it if he did and it worked. But I’m scared by what I see and who I see now. It’s Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde on a binge.”
Heard told the court she lied about Depp not being violent as she was “so in love with Johnny at the time”.
The court was also told about an incident in March 2013 when Depp had been due to film a Keith Richards documentary.
It has been previously been said that Depp was drinking large glasses of whiskey and snorting cocaine – leaving him in a bad way when he was meant to leave the next day.
Text messages between Heard and Depp’s then assistant, Nathan Holmes, were read to the court where she told him she was “trying to wake him”.
She then messaged Mr Holmes later in the day after Depp had been picked up, asking if he was still “upright”.
Talking about the “bender”, Heard told the court: “Johnny refused to leave … (he was) snorting lines of cocaine, drinking whisky and he was saying we really need to work this out, he wanted to get to the bottom of it.
“He wanted me to admit that I was having an affair with, not only Tasya van Ree, my ex-partner, but also a gentleman I hardly knew… he had just gotten it in his mind that I had these affairs and he wouldn’t leave until I admitted it.”
The star, 34, has spent three days so far giving evidence at the blockbuster trial.
She appeared in good spirits today as she arrived at the High Court.
The actress wore a black skirt and stilettos as she smiled and waved at fans before ducking into the court in London.
Depp is due to arrive later in the day as he has a “film meeting”.
Heard yesterday made a string of sensational claims in the witness box as she faced off against Depp.
The Aquaman star claimed Depp chucked bottles at her “like grenades” as they rowed in Australia in 2015.
She also accused Depp of leaving her with a list of horror injuries after he headbutted her – including two black eyes and a broken nose.
Heard’s make up artist pal also told the court how Depp tried to suffocate Heard with a pillow during a violent rage.
Depp is suing The Sun for referring to him as a “wife-beater” in a 2018 article. The Sun, supported by Ms Heard, says the term was justified.
Heard has accused him of 14 violent attacks over three years.
Depp is accused of turning his “rage and frustration” on Heard when he “failed to control” his drug and alcohol abuse.
The High Court heard yesterday:
The actor “descended into physically destructive behaviour” – causing him to refer to his “drunken and violent persona as ‘the monster'”, it was said.
But in a series of explosive revelations, Depp has branded Heard’s abuse allegations “complete lies”.
But he has accused her of “building a dossier” of false allegations as an “insurance policy”.
He has brought separate libel proceedings against Heard in the US.
The couple married in LA in 2015 after meeting on the set of comedy The Rum Diary.
But they divorced two years later after Heard, who donated her £5.5million settlement to charity, accused Depp of abuse.
The case continues.
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